well,now i have changed my understanding. I should not keep whatever God granted me in the past and will be granted in the future either. My little thinking might not be that great influences!but God's work will definitely change ones'.
Now, coming to the mid-May 2010! wow, time flies! My life is entire changed. God teaches me many things that i've ever seen in my lovely past! From the actively church serving to sociability. It is a tough period for me. But everything is good in God, because God is good all the time. Yes,i admit! The plans on me is simply wonderful.
From year2008(end of december), I started to help out in my aunty's business as a normal new sales girl. Phew,that is the miserable period that i've ever had. When i compared with my life style in Malaysia, that is a extreme different. I love to join school's activity(besides sport), serving in church and decorates my lovely house. If compared with the job environment in the shop,I will absolutely be bored BORED BORED! I dislike the lifestyle like that. I asked God: "WHY?". Work form day to night! Such a meaningless life. Why did God allowed me to live like that? and how can I balance my mentally and psychologically? Because what i want is SERVE You, My Lord JESUS CHRIST! yet not like serving 'customers' now??! yeah, i start grumbled to God. I pray to God almost everyday before i go and take care of the shop. Because I felt no rejoices. I need God desperately at that time. *ahya! Doesn't mean i no need God before this yeh!* well,we human being needs Him! Because He created us and love us as no one else! To be honest, I am a little stubborn person. *hehe!:) I think this is one of the reason God wants to train me. After a few months, I discovered God WANT me to learn something that is why I'm delivered to this place. That could not be no reason! I began to seek for the purpose. Yeah, I think i'm too comfortably in Malaysia. I do whatever I love to do. Such as, serving in Church, get together with my dear brothers and sisters often, participate the activity in school (Boy's Brigade, Choir, Marching commander, singing and dance competition, band and etc). Eventhough there are tough in all those training time but there are the things that i interested to do with. well, when you are doing something that you comfortable with. It is really nothing but I am enjoy in these and i learnt a lot of things thou. But the "breakthrough" is harder to entering into your life. This is what i understood till today:)
From the working life, i met many different people as in our customers. I don't understand why people want to shopping? Why they won't go to the place where people in needs? and is this customer gets hers salvation? HA! It is really funny as a sale girl would think this toward 'customer'. Bsides, I also mixed around with those other staff. The young people also. At first, I am really difficult to get into them. Theirs topic and thinking is not link with mine. I know i need to know them well. Yes,in fact serving God is not only in church community. It absolutely can be out of church also. And these people need God the most, isn't? Anyway I do shared my experiences and thinking with my colleagues. So, of course included the name of Jesus:) hehe!
Walk along the journey, i realised it is really different in social. I seen the trusdzszghgNAQe colour of people in social. Thanks God for giving me the wisdom to deal with those people. Some people is so hypocratic. I can't stand on these people but I must know the way to deal with them as a Christian. I am so fortunate!Because I have God as my director:) HAHA!*peace! ;) As the journey going on I got the reasons why I am here.
Ok! Zoom to my family picture, they wanna me to learn to be more socialable and able to earn my own money. Especially my aunty who is the owner of the business, I know she did put the efforts on me but when I am tired I will act inversely.I learnt to obey what they say but when there are something that I am not willing to follow I have to know how to refuse yet won't make them be upset and angry. Next, I will only do whatever that make God happy on my job. I won't follow how people doing because it is dangerous. Sometimes one word, one little action could make a different either in bad or good. I live in the world but I live in Your word. Do my part as a Christian. Let people see the image of Jesus. Hoo! comes to the sale tachnic I am a newbie. I know that every individual has different need including on dressing. The way of encourage someone to try out something new for themselves.Especially to the one who lost her confident.Phew!It is not easy man.
Alright. All the way to July2009! Yeah,my new challenge came. I'm enrolled to uniSIM this is where my another journey of life. I meeting various countries of classmate. The first semester, I was just focused on my studies nothing else. Meanwhile, I also stopped the work as well. Same in semester2. Till semester3! HERE! the challenge came. I have to back to work after the class. Now i have to know how to manage my time as for me to do well in studies and on work. Frankly, I am worried for my academic since i started my work. As in how can I work and being a full-time student at the same time?! I heard some people did that. But for me is New! From this hectic period, I learnt! Fully used of every seconds I have in my hand. Due to the business is my relative's business, so I obligate to some responsible which I can't tell in public. Now, I am taking some responsibles also. I know my aunty is expected me to achieve something on it. Thus, I need the strength and wisdom to do well on it. God is my refuge and STRENGTH. So I believe I can do it. But in business world is really interesting! I wonder those successful person is so persistence and alert in life. Hoo! Challenging! great. I learnt many things form running a business. Besides the knowledges and skills, "attitude" towards everything is a major homework to learn. Attitude is Altittude! I will have to upgrade myself in business field. Serving in this indusrty with You!:)
