it's really awake me (nod head)

在神的工作中神需要人。没有可用的人，神宁愿迟延不作；神要就以色列人，必须先得着摩西，没有可用的摩西，神只能等，等，直等到摩西可用的时候。
人所注意的是方法，神所注意的是人；人是不断研究方法，神是不断的寻找人；人以为有好的方法，神的工作才能发展；神知道如果没有得着人，他的工作就无法进行。

 ‘。。。他是合我心意的人，凡事要遵行我的旨意。’徒13:22 amen!

now stronger than before kicked the stone.

WHAT is the right/wrong?
WHEN is the right time to do right/wrong thing? 
WHICH right/wrong is right?
WHY the wrong/right decision will be made?
HOW clearance of the boundary between right and wrong?

hmm.These answers are tremendous important for me. Why am I saying that? Because if I have no 'reference' on these questions. How could I live on? At the point of time will be so lost,isn't? Evey little thing happened in my dailylife is not a coincidence. All because of a wonderful reason. Or might be lots reasons than my mind can thought. Persuits the Word of God is really important than everything. Few days ago, I was really lost in my studies. I could not understand what the lecturer is talking about?! I began to became afraid and worried, then some depression was out. Hmm!yes,at the moment. I knew that's something went wrong. I promtly closed all the lecture notes. Consequently, pray God to silent my heart and I read the bible. God is so real! He comforted me by saying that "...Go,God be with you.". It's in 2Cor.! WAH wah wah! Halleluyah=)) I am strengthened in Him. After that, I bowed down my knees and pray. My prayer is so wonderful. Because I knew God be with me. I was praying, He is there. He is here so. He is in me.=)
Then? what's the NEXT?  I cast all my doubts onto Him. I tell Lord. I really know nothing. Grant me the wisdom that I needed. I want rejoice and be glad! Nothing can beat me down. Ask shall be given!amen
I am weak, but I do not fear! haha!

"Yes,I do"

I want to learn how to love "who is mean". Just forgive! Because God wants His saint to be like this. yes,I do. amen

Again, "TODAY the work. TOMORROW the fire."

7 Seals! O Lord! You..

FIRST to FOURTH



FIFTH



SIXTH and SEVENTH

Everywhere! There'are THREE type of people.

1. SCOFFER

                 2. SEEKER

                                                           3. SAINT

Benar,O Lord! Your calling is eagerly on me. After Diploma i will commit the promises among You and me. Now,is the time to prepare myself. Start spreading & sharing Your wonderful Love and mercy around. O God,never lost the desires of Your in me.

My heart is a God-given hearted. I am just a sinner. You had forgiven me,mercy me by serving You with all my life. I am a useless instrument. But Lord, You will mold me. Train me.

To becoming like You,Jesus. Learn from Paul! Learning. Open my spiritual eyes! Open my spiritual ears! Use my lips to speak about You.Surrender myself. Wholeheartedly! I can not do it.BUT You can! With God nothing is impossible. It is a suffering pathway but BLESSED!

When all i have is God.I have all i need.

The voice of world says, "No,you can not do that!You are nothing! How would you know God will prepare for you? What if He din't open a door for you? Don't you worries about your family? Don't you think that you have no the ability to serve God. You are not a good speaker.No,com'om. Don't dreaming... Just find a high salaries job will do."

The voice of truth says, "The Lord is my shepherd, I sall not ne in want.Do not forget! God loves me. So, Love!Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

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Haha!The clearler the vision i see. My heart& life getting excited for Lord! Surely everything will passed away. But the word of God, the life of God is eternaly and everlasting! He is the ALPHA and OMEGA. Amen!  

09 December 2009.

Making decision is important. It is a promise which must be commited. At the moment desicion made,everything is began....

***YOU,^_^***

hmm...yes...

In a surprise,God given me a bonus. My little auntie called me for catching a movie,called "cloudy with a chance of meatballs".
This kiddish movie shown me a lot values. It's really worth to watch! Because this movie has reminded me some teachings that very related with God's teachings.

I) Just be who you are. Do not force yourself to be who wants you to be. God creates you as who you are. Everybody is an individual. Everyone is special in God's sights. amen

II) Get others into your world or vice versa. Get yourself into thier world. Called "'empathy". Always put yourself in others shoes. If failed to do this,during critical period comes upon us. We might face difficulties in making "last minute" explainations. Keep ourselves in good communication with everyone,especially your loved one.

III) Do not beat around the bushes. Express your thinking, feeling, praises. Just speak it out! ^_^ If we have any concerning words or praises words to tell,just express it. Do not be shy to speak it out! "it may change everything"

IV) Helping others with their needs! Yes,definitely.It's good having such conscious. Here is a problem, did we used it correctly? Do we really 'help' the people? or it's just a redundant? Not effectively. Let us always remind ourselves. "Ours kindness is a blessing or an akward for ones?" Really helpful? Let us pray to the Lord,ask for His desires. Do not lean on our own understanding.

V) Words/speaking is tremendous powerful that could be an influencial for ones' to accomplish mission impossible. Read more Holy Bible,so that we know what to say/how to speak in our daily life. Because God's word is so powerful! amen

Yes!everyone is blessed. Me too^_^ I feel so hapiness in Christ! Come on,Lord is waiting for you.
On His law,we need to meditate day and night. Touching Jesus is all the matter. Nothing else.^_^

Today...I fall aslept in the bus when on my way home from school.Oh my goodness! I missed out 3 bus stop where I should align.Wow,Lord.I had been aware of this.

I posted my funny look! Why am I do that? I am trying to send you a message. Tressure everyone surrounding you.
Give ours Family,Friends, and even strangers a Big Smile! Show them a joyful heart you have. Delighting Life. It is all from the Lord,Jesus Christ.

God Bless You.
Cheers,
 jieling

when i seen this video clip i was been comfort. It's my prayer.Lord!

Private and confidential

Dear Lord,
i'm really hating myself. Stupid Jieling. Why? why I still never learned the lesson taught by God form T?Now,you seem like repeated again. See. No way for you to tear. Why? Why i will tear for it?i should not isn't? Lord, you tell me. Tell me. How to deal with this lesson?I really could not understand. Can you revealed something you want me to learn?in obviously. I getting tired of this. Can I do not repeat it agian and again? Argghh,Lord! I need you.I need you to reveal your teaching in me obviously. Other than this kind of lesson is OK for me. At least still able to catch up. But this lesson I really can not handle. Who can teach me till I understand?
Single but unavailable anymore.
Cheers,your child.

Everything will be fine in the next second.
Cheer up.Lord will leads me tho.

my voice. Yes,victoria in You!

After tumble,whether still courageous to sing loud to God "一生奉献，一生荣耀祢".
Nice for me to think about. Yet,i get the answer. Yes,Lord!I dare to. Because you're the one who draw me closer to You. Every tumble is a lesson for me to learn and grow up. Thanks God for the rose with torn. :) Thanks God for the rough road with stone. :) Thanks God that You're with me. Eventhough I tend to give up myself,but You're the one who pull me back. Gloria!
Through Your servant. Though Your powerful Word. You leads me there.
Nothing much to say, JUST thanks God! Praise You!
Rejoice and unceasingly pray to You:)

The Seven Last Sayings of Jesus Christ

O Lord!...I just wanna shout loud this.Shout to the Lord.
Leads me Lord~i won't want forsaken..I have sinned. You save me.
i LOVE YOU,Lord.
Anticipating the 2nd coming of Christ b.u.t afraid.WUSSSHHH...
Lord,i want to clear the task you given for me.I'm weak,You'll strengthen me:)

How are you?

There're nothing much i can written here.The DMS 1st semester going to the end soon,means that examination is just at the corner. IT is reaching!
Thanks God!Because all the way He bringing me. Until here,everything goes smooth. H.Father,you taught me lots.
What have YOU taught me?
1)our relationship among God is NOT depends on how well are your services.
2)You ask me to step out my COMFORT ZONE,which means from Church communities to the social.You shows me how people is? I met lots different 'patern' of people,I ensure there will be more in future.
3)You closed my past-service 'door'(mainly on teaching and leading worship). However,another 'door' will be opened soon. I have to get ready!
4)Must have a good time-management in HAVING QUIET-TIME WITH MY DEAREST GOD, STUDIES, FAMILY, FELLOW FRIENDS.
5)I learnt that spending time with fellow friends is very important because it's a way to spread out gospel. Building relationship is a vital point.
6)Do not restrict every matter in my own hand as it'll spoil God's will on me.
7)My daily life action and speaking are always better ways in spreading Jesus Name.
8)I had temporary cast "that matter" aside. Only Jesus knows what am i talking.
9)having good sleep at night leads energetic day ahead.
10)having a joyful-hearted because my family,freinds will be influenced. They will be happy too. God's joyce, hope, peace is tremendous powerful.
11) God's Word is injected in my life. Whenever i encounter bad or good things,His Word supporting me.
12) there're more and more...

In the nutshell,i want be calm in everything happened/happening/to be happened.
*** Keep my mind clean as God likes.
*** Keep my heart sensitive enable to sence God's concern.
*** Keep my ear to listening His Word.
*** Keep my mouth holy,always speak His glory.
*** Praise people with sincere heart.
*** Speak the truth.
*** Right-decisional making.

These are not easy to acomplish.Anyway I'll try it! He will help me.
I strengthened in Him! Don't give up!
God will open a door for me!

I'm HIS.

thanks God! You remind me today. I learnt!
I'm belong to God, not the world. A'men. It's all because You first love me.
Argh,i want walk on Your path. I DECIDED!!!God leads me.

i knew.

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men"Colossians 3:23, NIV

this is the words really "shoot" deep my heart.Since I chosen Diploma in Management,I wonder is it the will from God on me?Yes,God given me this proverb.I believes whatever I am doing now are all for Lord.God can turn the wrong decision made to the right in Him.Just do it.

最痛的时候

This is the reason.I love You because You first love me.

so cute

I was fascinated by these children.haha

It's good.

I used this article for the scholarship application! My future plannings
感谢主！生命中如果只能说一句话，那就是“感谢主！”。在SPM的过程中，我学会了许多的功课。过程中，上帝让我靠着他百战百胜，越战越勇！虽然，最后正式成绩完全超出我的预料，在拿到的刹那间我感觉崩溃似乎甩到谷底。真的。我用了好几天的时间去修复自己。人的终点是神的开始。上帝粉碎了我又重建了我更得胜的生命。一路走到今天，我有数不尽的恩典。对于我的未来，我更加渴慕神能让我在世的日子里为神的国度做些事情。悦纳我成为基督精兵，是讨天父喜悦的。
在我１６岁那年我开始思考“生命”。我开始寻求神在我生命中的计划。在寻求的过程中，对我而言最重要的－家庭，竟起了突变。一开始，真让我措手不及。我赶紧寻求天父，忍不住向天父歇斯底里了。因着我的角色我必须快点站起来。刚强壮胆。我开始看见所谓的“人性”（humanity）。我喜欢看见人喜乐的生命，因为我也会很欣慰。我大大的学会了用心去聆听人的心声。学习去分析问题。同时，我更加清楚要去关怀他人也要坚固自己的生命。如何坚固？答案只有一个：捉住神的应许和话语。虽然，我不是个风趣和外向的人。但是，我希望我的“冷静”能是失落、惊慌的人的祝福。不知不觉对某一层面的人类产生了负担和好奇心，也下定决心要读“心理系”。
当我以为对儿童有负担时，却似乎是不确定的。祷告寻求答案，我问天父既然我对儿童有负担那为什么热诚却不在？。祷告的期间，生活中一直会出现有关“特别需要”儿童的讯息。上帝啊，难道是这些孩子？那时我心中是平安的，我想这就是答案了。或许神让我看见这些孩子，天父要我用基督的爱去爱他们。对我而言，这是非常挑战的一个看见。不管怎样，我只要尽心、尽意、尽力爱主我的上帝，并爱人如己。用我全心、顺服地去完成每一次的功课和任务。任何的结果都是天父的旨意。日子如何，力量也必如何。
目前，我将会在uni SIM就读《Diploma in Management Studies》是我从未想过会读的科系。其实，当初选择它是因为这是一个能够连接到《Bachelor in Psychology》的科系，而且只需要1年9个月的时间。能够顺利进到这间学府是从神而来很大很大的恩典。原因是我的成绩不好而且今年的报名人数是爆满的再加上我是外籍学生，竞争是如此强烈。但在神凡事都能，只要是神的旨意。完成Bachelor in Psychology后，我会寻求合神心意的工作为神争取更多的灵魂。我有一直向神祷告一件事，就是让我顶多读到Master in Theology就足够了，并且是进修神学。好让我在神的话语上稳固地扎根。到了这里，想必是时候正正式式地踏上事奉工场了。这是一条蒙福的道路，上帝是我的供应者。计划总是最美的，但愿神悦纳并成就他更了不起的计划，一切都是出于神。这是好的。:)

A girl with a seed (Part 1)

I'm here to write a story.This is a story related to a little girl with a seed!
The 'broken English' be shown: "ha ha" :D super 'paiseh'! (=_+)
Planting
Three years ago,there is a girl 'encounter' a seed in a unexpected hour. The girl treats the seed usual as she found others in her daily life. After a few days,the girl realises that the seed is so so so unusual with her.She had few opportunities to encounter the seed. It's really unusual.

Finally,she began to appreciate the seed so much so much. She keeps planting the seed in her farm. She had been fascinating by the unusual seed. She kept watering and planting.
The first two months,the seed seems like growing well. Everything seems so well.

Half year later,the plant begins to wilt. The girl was so desperate and anxious yet sh e still keep watering and planting. She did not give up but the plant seems to be like 'back to the beginning'. Becomes a seed. No green. Just a seed. She went to the gardener to seek for help. She wonder why? Why there is no developments to the seed? Something is wrong? The Gardener keeps silent. The girl still unknown with her curious. She continuously approach to the gardener everyday. She seems like get nothing from the Gardener. No answer. No hint.

She just kept approaching to the gardener everyday.Approximately 2 years later,she was tired. She begins cease approaching to gardener on this matter. In the other hand, the seed is still in her farm. The seed was sink deeper and deeper in her farm even though the seed do not have any development or growing up. After that, the girl really completely cease to solving it. She starts to busy with others business. She starts to develop her other businesses. She is extremely busy in her daily life. She tend to forget about the seed's story.

Three years later,she moves to another village. She shift all her belongings to the new village. Once she pack all the belongings. She felt something left. .... .... Finally,she found it. It is the seed. After the busy years,she has facing the seed. She brings the seed along to the new village. ... ...
Comes upon the new village she do not have her own farm anymore. The girl just simply 'put it' on a pot. Just a normal flower pot. One day,the girl saw the sunshine shine on the seed and a little rainy. There are air and water upon the seed. The girl is curious. In fact,in the heart of the girl is tremendously happy when she saw the seed been watering and planting. Because that is what she looking forward for so many years but she is so afraid that all this is just temporary and just like what had happened in the past. She do not wish to face.

Now,she approaches again to the Gardener. Yepii. The gardener got the reply for her. She hints her to wait with patient. Patient! ... ...

hello! :)

MY FELLOW FRIENDS ... WHAT DO YOU THINK FOR THE NEXT EPISODE? ME,THE AUTHOR UNKNOWN ALSO. LET'S LOOK FORWARD TO IT. WILL IT BE THE SAME AS SHE PLANT HER SEED AT THE FIRST? OR THERE IS A FANTASTIC ENDING FOR THE GIRL WITH THE SEED? WILL THE SEED GROWING UP? .... ...

A cold dialog

One day,I went to food junction.
I saw a female customer approach to the friuts stall auntie.Their dialog was began as below:

A customer:" one cup!"
The auntie said:"one cup what?"

haha It's a weird people I met and I laugh immediately.

Dislike.

In fact,there is one thing I always escape of.I don't wanna escape but I cant.
I think I really need to close my eyes on this topic.Every time I see XXX..I feel something strange and weird.It's like emotional. I know not much people will see my blog so I can feel free to write here.
XXX is enjoying a good life right now.Erm.Thanks Lord for that!
O God,what you want to do with it?What is your plan indeed? I'm curious on it.

QUESTION MARK???

A crucial point.

I dont want insisting of my own planning and goal! God has His fabulous plan on me.

I want to see You.
I want to hear You.

I want to serve for You.

I want to speak for You.

Bible is one of the way to...

I hear God today...

He hints me:

"Want to go Batam mission trip?

(little ignorance existed)

You know the language.Why dont you ues it?

You are able communicating with the people there,you know?

Did you(me)remember the scene you saw few years ago in Indonesia?

God already insert it in you."

So.. ? :)Yes,I think I know what to do.

my goal..thanks 耶稣基督!!我的主!!:)

Give thanks to the Holy one,Give thanks with a grateful heart..

wah,yesterday my friend e-mail about the school matter.If he didn't e-mail me,I definitely go and register SAS.After his advice,I was dicided not to go there.God is guided me ... He leads me through various 'pipeline'!To avoid the trap.woo~Life is fantastic with Lord.It's thrilled and fabulous ha.

Now,here's my latest planning:

18yrs old

now... Toefl test(confirmed) and car liscense(may be)

July 2009... Diploma of Menagement Studies (in Singapore Institute of Menagement-SIM)

*****after 15 months....*****

19years old

october 2010... working..

21 years old

2012... prepare myself (overseas-BA in psychology and MA in psy)

Half-study,Half working

28years old

2018... career prospect

**serve my Lord**

My Decision

the 1st day in April,this few days I really think a lot on my studies pathway.There's some apprehension to cope:

• Is it a worthy course for me to pick up?
• If yes,how can I go far in this field?
• Am I really know the reason I insisted to this course?
• Where is my finance resource?
• Is it the way which God wants me to go on?It's important to me rather than others.
• What's my family think about?
• Ultimately,in fact what I want to achieve?What is my goal?
• some trivial concerns existed...

By now,I think I should know how I gotta do.It's partially independence journey for me.At least,I knew my financial resource for specialist diploma. After specialist diploma,I'll go for work in order to save money.I think it will take about one year or one year plus.I guess.In the period of working,I'll go for part-time TOEFL. Once I got adequate funds,I want to go US continue my studies till MA.Yes!Half work,Half studies there.That's how I'll going on.Let's CHIONG for my brilliant future.Heavenly Father,I need you so much in my future.

What I had decided is all for you.If it's yours wills too...do let me go for it.You're in me.

18-19 yrs old - SPECIALIST DIPLOMA OF PSYCHOLOGY duration
20-21.5 yrs old - WORKING and TOEFL TEST
21.5-26 yrs old - work hard for BA and MA in united state
27 yrs old - my career prospect.

... MY LIFE IS IN YOU:) ...

将眼光放得更远.

There are uncountable soul yelling..which is God's concern.

Concern what God is concerned.

long journey..still a long long journey.
I want+need to go.

很期待每一天.虽然,或许将会是一个人.不再是两个人的背包.

Every defeat is a imprint of God's love.

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...SPECIMEN...

Everyone needs to settle the account itself with God in the future.

i'm upgraded in Christ.

我痊愈了.真的!

我相信在我的一生里是与众不同的. 怎么说呢?天父一再给我应许. 我想在这世代的少年人中有多少是迷失的. 有些少年人他们的努力往往都有自己想要达到的. 我呢?我努力过了..结果!是这样. 坦白说,我真的很不服气.为什么我的朋友们都得到了好的结果,而我呢? 却是比我先前的还要糟糕..彻底的糟投了.靠神的力量读书.我有啊!在预备考试的过程中,我也没忽略神的话语啊..当时,还觉得靠着神越战越勇.ULTIMATELY,却是这样的结果.
神的意念真的是高过我的意念. 我用了几天的时间去修复自己. 神啊!我知道祢爱我. 我也深知道祢要使用我. 因祢常在我的生命中给我明确的应许. 在教会,我的确学了很多祢的话语. 我想...家庭的功课祢让我学了!I learned. 如今,这的确是很崭新的一课.
今天的我,又被主大大的更新了. 虽然被陶造,被磨炼的过程是痛的.但,我深知我胜过了!完成了这个功课,不是我自己的能力而是爱我的耶稣基督加添我的力量.没有他..我相信我一定是属世的.(哈!废话.) 如果,神让我在学术上有很优越的作为.或许现在的我不知道会是怎样.可能,从人眼中是'善'. 但,在神的眼中却是'恶'的. 我要用我所经历的一切去祝福他人. 我学到了,自己计划好的'计划'并不是神的计划..就算看起来..似乎..好象是'对'的.
神要象在耶利米书一样拆毁,粉碎,重建.虽然,只是一件事情.但是,学到的却是好多好多呀!
哈哈哈哈哈...我真的好喜乐!刚强壮胆,不是说'要'就'有'的.要去经历,去体验..才拥有!在基督里的生命太过瘾了!!太刺激了!!

It's really thrilled!I'm loving it.

I wonder WHAT HOW WHY

为主来梦想

相片里儿时的模样

记录着年少的时光

曾经在你我的心中

要登上月亮

要飞越太平洋 啊

多年后 我们都成长告别了清涩和迷惘

曾经在你我的心中

编织的梦想是否已遗忘 哦

人生的理想是为主发光

拭去了泪水使我们更坚强

路依然漫长别失去了盼望

痛苦时记得有主在你身旁

为主来梦想 为主来发光

虽然有挫折 但我不用沮丧

主是我力量 主指引方向

我们的日子有梦想 有灿烂的阳光

哦 人生的理想是为主发光

拭去了泪水使我们更坚强

路依然漫长别失去了盼望

痛苦时记得有主在你身旁

为主来梦想 为主来发光

虽然有挫折 但我不用沮丧

主是我力量 主指引方向

我们的日子有梦想

有灿烂的阳光 为主来梦想

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the lyrics of <<为主来梦想>> entirely describing me. Haevenly father,I know you love me.You know my limit. But you're the ONE always make my life beyond. Beyond what I thought,what I expected.

Since my exam results released,I know in fact my life is unique in Christ. Eventhough that worst..I know HE has his fantastic plan on me.Cheer Up,jieling.This is just the starting point. Every results due to God's great plan.hoo~
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but I still need some times to recover myself with the strength of God and I'll be stronger.A-men

submitted my letter. Thanks God for everything!! yea,I'm fine.

No longer me but Christ in me

After secondary life,I though i can be relax and do whatever i want to. Especially I though I able to serve God in church with my whole period before my result release..yea,what had happened until today was not what I planned and expect. I experienced alots from the past few weeks..which from the 'social'!

the environment changed but does't change me.Instead, the vision and minded been influced.Definitely,change to be the better. What decision should I made?Should I drop my service in JB church?or just keep it?but..I'm really can't present every service. I want!I want!I appreciate!I want the position to serve my Lord.Sigh,I think it is better to discuss with my mentor.Yeah... ...Dont worry,I'm on the way!the way where God planned for me.